I cried. Like a crazy person who got left behind and never see the person again.
But I should thank God because I still get to see you someday. Maybe.
I'm not ready yet, honestly.
I have to think about what kind of face should I put when I hear your voice, when I look at you talking arrogantly like you always do.
I have to think about what kind of conversation should we do when we meet.
I have to think about what kind of distraction should I look when you were talking about your girl. I guess I still can't get used to hear that.
I was thinking about not to see you for some time, but half of myself didn't let me do it.
After all, you are my best friend. The one I love the most. The one I'm looking up to, beside the arrogant and menye menye side that you have. I hate it so much actually.
One thing you should know, liking you makes me hard to open up my heart to anyone else. I claimed my heart as yours, something that I have to keep. Something that I have to take care of.
When I heard finally that you already found the right one, my world suddenly crashed down. I already put my life in order with you in it, but then I just realized that it's useless now. It suddenly incompleted.
But then, what can I do? It was my fault for hiding my feeling towards you and keeping it only for myself. In the other side, I have no guarantee for making you happy like she do.
This is the way to show how much I love you. By letting you choose what make you happy. Even if I'm not included, it's okay.
As long as you happy, I am happy too. Because the only way to show my love is letting you happy. Period.
Stay healthy, and stay happy. I'm sorry for keeping this undenial feeling. But I'm just gonna keep it for myself. You don't have to know. Just be happy with whatever that comes to your life. I'd be happy too.
Thank you, and goodbye.
